The Delirium Diaries III

The Delirium Diaries III

• Monday, January 14, 2013

The Delirium Diaries III  

By: Carmen Varner

Written: March 17, 2012

The situation I find myself in

is similar to past.

I make the same mistakes,

yet I don't know I do wrong.

If I could simply take a moment 

to envision the circumstances and the outcome,

maybe my life would be an alternate.

My emotions remain on mute

like a blaring television commercial.

This is a waste of time,

a destruction of all I deem essential.

I see not my future 

nor my forgotten.

Nothing can compare to this twinkle in time,

so I focus on me.

I see what I want

and I do now as I please.

Only I can please myself.

If I love not myself,

I cannot ever adore another.