The Delirium Diaries III  
By: Carmen Varner
Written: March 17, 2012

The situation I find myself in
is similar to past.
I make the same mistakes,
yet I don't know I do wrong.
If I could simply take a moment 
to envision the circumstances and the outcome,
maybe my life would be an alternate.
My emotions remain on mute
like a blaring television commercial.
This is a waste of time,
a destruction of all I deem essential.
I see not my future 
nor my forgotten.
Nothing can compare to this twinkle in time,
so I focus on me.
I see what I want
and I do now as I please.
Only I can please myself.
If I love not myself,
I cannot ever adore another.