Debris, debris, nothing but debris. Anna Rose's life felt like the streets after a California storm. Everything everywhere; nothing as it should be. Branches in the road with a haphazard pile of leaves on the side — a strange but alluring mess.

Anna Rose questioned her life choices. She wondered, she pondered, she thought. Some of life's biggest decisions aren't as easy as the adults had made it seem years prior. "Go to college. Get a job. It'll all work out." It wasn't that simple. It never is.

There she was two years after her graduation, working part-time as a server at a bustling restaurant & part-time doing freelance graphic design work. It was a beautifully dysfunctional marriage, graphic design & her, but the rest was frivolous. 

She arose every morning & poured herself an enormous mug of coffee, only to trek to work to serve coffee to someone else. Her life reminded her of the line that Rachel said in Friends: "Everyone I know is either getting married, or getting promoted, or getting pregnant, & I'm getting coffee!"

chevron floor, chevron pattern,

Time wasted, time thrown away, time that vanished like a puff of smoke in the air. Gone. With every passing day, Anna Rose felt increasingly restless. Every moment she spent at the restaurant, was a moment she couldn't focus on her goals: her dream of running her own graphic design & consulting company.

Debris, debris, debris. Anna Rose worried that her life was off track. Her inspiration lacked while her desperation grew more than a mass of mold in a long forgotten cup of tea. She felt like the weight of the universe hung heavily on her shoulders, but she put the pressure on herself.

Anna Rose took a moment to breathe. She was 24. She didn't have to have it all figured out. Vera Wang didn't begin her career as a designer until she was 40. J.K. Rowling was 32 when she first penned Harry Potter & the Sorcerer's Stone. Amy Poehler began her comedy career in her late 20s. Anna Rose exhaled with a sigh of relief.

There is so much potential & hope out there; she just has to find it. Not everyone has their life figured out the moment they finish college & some never figure it out at all. Anna Rose let out her final tear of frustration & wiped it away.

Today she was going to pursue her vision & she wasn't going to let her age or her fear of rejection or her expectations on life & careers get in the way. Baby steps toward her goal. That's what she needed & that's what she did. It was never about finding the answer, it was about finding the path. 


Is your life how you thought it would be when you were a kid, a teen, a college student? Can you relate to Anna Rose? :]

 Follow me for more short stories:
  Bloglovin // Facebook // Instagram // Pinterest // Twitter 

Add me on Snapchat: carmenvarner