Learning to Love My Body: Stretch Marks, Cellulite, & All

I was 122 lbs at my lowest weight & 193 lbs at my highest. At 193 lbs I felt self-conscious & unhappy. But here's the thing, I felt self-conscious & unhappy at 122 lbs too. I look back at photos of me at my lowest weight & I remember how I felt at the time: insecure, unhappy with my body & my looks - even though I was at my leanest, I felt fat! 

It takes a lot of strength to ignore someone's negative opinion of you. It's one thing when someone comments on your life, your relationship, your job, but it's so discouraging when someone makes a negative comment about your body. It takes a lot of strength to change your own attitude about yourself too.

After losing & gaining weight all my life, I decided to focus on being happy, healthy, & present. I’m curvy & loving life & actively working toward feeling comfortable in my own skin. Sometimes I have to tell myself, "shut up with your negative self-talk!" The world is cruel enough, I don’t need to do it to myself.

I focus on health & feeling fit. It's not about the number on the scale or the size of my pants. It's about how I just ran a mile without stopping, something I haven't been able to do in years. It's about quieting the negative self-talk when I'm going grocery shopping without makeup even though my cheeks have some acne scars. It's about embracing the moment for what it is, rather than holding back.

Studies show that youth are consistently dissatisfied with their bodies. Adolescent girls want to weigh less while the boys want to be bigger & stronger, according to the National Center for Biotechnology Information (NCBI). Their self-perception is swayed by the media & cultural standards in their search for the perfect body.

How about you? I’d love to hear your thoughts.


  1. I've learned to accept that I will never be skinny. My husband loves my curves, cellulite and all, so why shouldnt I?

    Pam xo/ Pam Scalfi♥

  2. Love the fact that you are focusing on being happy and healthy! That's what life is all about!
    xoxo, Vanessa


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